Happy-ness

Who is this unhappy person taking over me? I am not like this you know. I used to be happy and contented person. Please come back.

Swimming.

First day of swimming class todayy.
Alhamdullilahhh everything went well or at least I did not drown kan? Haha.

Sobs sobs

Aku tau aku perluu berhenti berharap. I tried weh. Tapi xboleh. I am tired. Yeah. I should stop. I should. I really should.

Why?

Q: So how's your birthday party?
A: I really hope you were there. I really do.